At the risk of sounding ungrateful - I've got to say the unexpected gift card from X is a bit frustrating. Frustrating because while I'm struggling to make ends meet without any child support I get a Starbucks gift card.
Now for those that don't know me, I LOVE coffee. I spend many hours in coffee shops. The fact that X got a Starbucks gift card shows he does know at least one thing about me. But somehow holding on to "it's the thought that counts" doesn't shake my frustration.
What X has failed to notice is the fact that B is back in cloth diapers rather than training pants. At a time when we're actually making headway on potty training and right after I asked X to buy training pants rather than diapers (he refuses to use cloth). Problem is I don't have enough money to buy training pants right now. I even tried to exchange some duplicate videos B received at Christmas for training pants but couldn't cover the difference. I left the store near tears.
How did I get this poor? A series of unfortunate events. A massive fear being homeless with a two year old while BC Housing found me a home in subsidized housing. Almost half my salary goes to keep a roof over our heads. Being under employed. I've been trying to find full time employment but unfortunately there isn't much option in this town for a paralegal. I thought of moving to another city where I could find better employment but I can't afford to move. The possibility of getting another part time job is limited by the odd hours I currently work and a custody schedule that leaves me little time without B.
Maybe I just need to escape my stresses and go enjoy a nice latte...at least it'll be free.
